19: Not to speak derogatorily of others

The Book of Knowledge
Laws of Character
Not to speak derogatorily of others (Lev. 19:16)

CONTENT WARNING: The following play features explicit sexual content and discussions of kink.

S & M in the bedroom

M
but i’m asking

S
i know

M
i’m not just saying it’s okay
i’m saying i want it

S
you do?

M
i do

S
you’re sure?

M
i’m sure

S
tell me you’re sure

M
i’m sure

S
i’m sure what?

M
i’m sure sir

beat

S
what are you sure of?

M
i’m sure i want you to call me
to call me a-

S
stop
i haven’t decided if you get to say it yet
beat
tell me why

M
why sir?

S
why you want me to call you that

beat

M
i want
to be
made less than
sir

S
why do you want to be made less than?

M
i want to feel
less of me
sir

S
why do you want to feel less of you?

beat

M
sir?

S
tell me

beat

M
the bullies
in the schoolyard throwing dirt
a thousand demon fists upon me
tongues waggling swollen red
they used to call me that word
i’m broken sir broken
or
i love that word
i use it myself
about me about others
politicians and acquaintances and people i want to fuck
i use it constantly sir i use that word constantly
or
it’s the love of the game sir
the love of tradition
that draws me to that word
i worship the perverts sir
and all that they’ve wrought
or
this is all a vicious test sir
and if you use that word you’ll fail
or
it’s the media sir
i’m just repeating what i’ve heard
or
it’s a prank sir
April Fools!
or
i’m lost sir
how did i get here?
or
or
or
it’s
i don’t
fucking
know
jesus fuck i
i don’t
CARE right now
about like like
the neuroses or the optics or the moralities
or the whatEVER i cannot care
just rip inside me and pull until i snap
fry my brain un-suture my wounds and
just fucking FUCK me

long long silence

S
ask me again

M
please
call me that word
sir

S
that slur

M
that slur sir
please degrade me sir

beat

S
no
M whimpers
you haven’t earned it yet

M
…
…
…
…
…
yes sir

END OF PLAY